My dear pillow

You've been a good friend my pillow,

You've known my worries,

Counted my toss and turns,

But tonight, tonight's going to be different.

                

You've been there when the lights go off,

It's easy to find you even in the dark,

You keep still my head when insomnia kicks in. 

      

I’ve punched you times and times again,

You never kept a count,

You stayed,

You've been close,

But tonight, tonight is going to be different.

I'll push you aside my pillow,

I will lay my head,

I will hope to rest and rise to a great day tomorrow.

Tonight, I'll not sleep on you my pillow,

My past is behind me,

I'll cry no more.

I'll push you my pillow to the edge of my bed,

That's how close I came to my end,

I’ll push you to the wall,

It’s been that hard,

Now you know why.

I'll not hold you tight my pillow,

Tonight, I hold me,

Tuck in my blankets and realise how warm they kept me,

I was too lost I missed it.

I'll not cuddle you my pillow,

Tonight I say a prayer,

Tonight is a good night.

I'll not lay me head on you my pillow,

 I'll not worry of things a past and things to come, no …

Tonight, tonight I dream.                       

           

Let all be witness

Awaken harp,

Awaken lyre,

I sought the sun,

The moon at night,

Our love to guard,

I summoned the stars,

The galaxy is overly vast,

My love is vast, equally vast,

Let the clouds gather,

Still Oh wind,

The ocean kiss the horizon,

East and West, keep watch,

North and South, capture every moment,

Let the trees sing to this tune,

I will declare my love,

Let all be witness,

Let the mountains clap,

Let the valleys echo my words,

I will not relent,

Let all be witness,

Of this I will tell tonight,

My love tonight, we love,

Let all be witness.

The place of man in life

The universe is rather vast, too vast I couldn’t tell its ends,

Yet the earth is all we have, this world to conquer and live in,

People to know, people to love, people be ,

For everyone I know, I say thank you,

Your role in my life is known and seen,

The importance of everyone is known to me,

They that love me, even they that didn’t,

Those that motivated and they that pulled me down,

There is a place for every man on earth,

Be it to cause pain, heal or love,

Whatever it be, that it is,

We’ve been hurt, betrayed,

We’ve had to begin again, cry ourselves to sleep,

Hide our pain behind a smile,

Play cool when all was unwell,

Say you’re fine when you weren’t,

Give when you had none,

Life has not always been smooth,

We’ve all had some low moments,

Moments you wished it was better the end to come,

When no one was there,

Days when no song could resonate, you wrote your own,

Moments you had nothing else to loose ,nothing else to give, THE END!

BUT ALAS……

It’s not over!!.. Well,not until it’s over,

There was hope again, strength again,

To begin again!! The end is not yet,

Dream on, the course is right,

It is clear again, my life is life, To be lived,

Through the good, the bad and evil,

To live every day, to dream and to be,

We are here, now, live!

To everyone, love and let love,

Rise when you can, fly when you can,

Rest when you can, no chills,

We have today, to do the best we can, be the best we can,

Appreciate everyone for who they are,

Live and let live,

Live, Love Life!!

I do not give up today

I do not give up today,
Not yet time to give up,
I've got things to do,
I have a people to become,
People to inspire,
And others to annoy,
I've got riches to acquire,
Treasures to find,
Souls to win,
People to mentor,
I do not give up now,
There are youths to mentor,
Prayers to pray,
Songs to write,
Hymes to sing,
A world to conquer,
A life to live,
Great to become,
Honor to earn,
I do not give up now,
Better days to see,
Stories to tell,
Disappointments to overcome,
Tears to cry,
Laughter to share,
Toasts to make,
Meals to share,
So much to be done,
I cannot give up now,
The world is too big,
Life is not all bad,
I have days to live,
A purpose to serve,
A people to become,
A destiny to fulfill,
I do not give up today.

This meaningless race ends now

What course is this I have taken?

What is this my heart has desired? 

O how deceitful can the heart be?

I sought happiness,

That I sought with diligence,

Oblivious of the cost,

Whatever path I had to take I took,

Just so I get to my happiness,

O this heart is deceitful!!

Vanity! Vanity!!

What race is this I run?

I chase the wind,

I race with the wind,

A simpleton, my professor would call me,

True, I am a fool,

They said regard wisdom,

Get understanding even if it costs all your fortune,

Now I know the true meaning of these words,

A fool now finds wisdom,

I will not chase this again,

The wind is far to fast,

The end game? Naught!

I will choose my race again,

I will reconsider the path I take,

May happiness find me,

Even as I seek to do your will,

The will of He who sent me,

End this meaningless race,

Awaken purpose within me,

May I find meaning to my days,

May I sing of your goodness in my days. 

This I want

There is little, there is much,
I am well, I am faint,
I am happy, am not happy,
Tomorrow will be great, today was crazy,
I apologize for that, you can go to hell,
The food was great, that drink was awful,
I finally did it, I wish I could,
Dusty road, nice car,
Let’s start all over again, am tired of this,
I’ve had enough, I can’t get over this,
The sky is clear, crazy chilly today,
I prefer longer, short is better,
The world is big, global village they call it,
I love summer, winter is coming,
So much that one can do, there are no jobs,
I like loud music, books are amazing,
I like this, that is better,
 

*Today you want this, tomorrow you want another. Our preferences change often. Our likes and dislikes are relative. What I say today may not be what I meant, tomorrow. Because man is but a mind changer; changing his mind to suit his interest*

What has befallen us?

The rain will shine,
The sun will fall,
Greatness in small,
Pretty poor,
Rich and sorrowful,
The strong will fall,
The weak will rise,
The clouds will pour,
The dust will rise,
What man will be?
What man shall stand?
The meek will rise,
The haughty be stricken, 
I hope to see the day,
To see the end of the day,
Justice fails,
Injustice wins,
What curse has befallen us?
Free in chains,
Bound in freedom,
Happy in lack,
Sad in plenty,
What curse has befallen us?
Rejoice in evil,
Strain in good,
The day is dark,
The night is brief,
The world is small,
The days are evil,
When will good befall us?
When will justice find us?
The days bring hope,
When will these days come?

I will not regret

I will not regret
It didn’t go as expected,
I will not regret,
It did not work out at all,
I will not regret,
I am disappointed,
But I do not regret,
Everything happens with a reason,
Everything happens for a reason,
No room for regrets,
I could have done this,
 I could have done that,
I do not regret,
Why stall destiny over regrets?
Learn that lesson,
Become better,
Live not in regrets,
Move on already!

How do I start again?

I had you, you were mine,
Now you’re not,
I begin again,
I knew you, you knew me,
We were close,
Now we’re not,
I begin again, so do you,
We re-write our story,

Re-arrange the future,

Replace and replace,

It is not you anymore,

Forget and start again,
Our past doesn’t matter,
Better days lie ahead they say,
You go your way, I’ll take mine,
All I take from you is the memories,
I will remember you as I walk away,
I walk away not because I don’t care,
What we had was special,
But now come a time,
A time when one need take their path,
We are two on different paths,
My love I will remember,
I wish you well,
Re-writing our fantasies,
How do I replace you?
The one in my dreams,
My everyday fantasy,
How do I start again?

There shall be an uplifting

Only they that fall get to rise,

Only they that are down need rise up,

An uplifting shall occur,

Our onus is to wait and watch as it happens,

Stand our ground and watch there be an uplifting,

Though I be down today, an uplifting shall occur,

I will raise again,

I will soar to higher heights,

What can be more hopeful?

An uplifting, a rise to higher,

Dust off and prepare,

An awakening shall occur,

Prepare as the witnesses prepare as well,

The skies be your heavenly witness,

The moon to testify by night,

An uplifting shall occur,

Lest any man doubt,

The hand of the Most High has struck the valleys, they rise to level,

We walk no more in shadows of men, the Most High be our God,

We walk under the shadow of the Most High,

An uplifting by His hand,

Though we be down today, tomorrow we rise,

A new day brings a new hope,

We rise today, we rise tomorrow,

We hold on to the promise,

There shall be an uplifting.

It’s okay

It’s ok to not like something,
It’s ok to feel mad,
It’s ok to love, and sure much ok to be loved back,
It’s ok have a crash on someone,
It’s ok to want to let go,
It’s ok to reach your limits,
It’s ok to want out,
It’s ok to not suffer anymore,
It’s ok if you feel hurt and betrayed,
It’s ok, you can get over it,
It’s ok to not fight anymore,
It’s ok to not hang in there anymore,
It’s ok to demand an explanation, and if none is coming,
It’s ok to want out,
It’s ok to not be the one pulling things together always,It’s ok to want to be pampered,
It’s ok to disagree at times,
It’s ok to not be the punching bag,
It’s ok to want to tell them to go to hell,
It’s ok to get tired,
It’s ok to want your peace,
It’s ok to not stomach it anymore,
It’s ok to want something else, something beautiful, something different,
It’s ok to be someone meaningful, or want to be,
It’s ok to have your dreams and ambitions,
It’s ok to want to reach somewhere,
It’s ok to be where you are today, better days lie ahead,
It’s ok to be down at times, that way you appreciate the highs,
It’s ok to not always want what they want,
It’s ok to be different,
It’s ok to set your boundaries,
It’s ok to be disappointed at times-how strong is your heart anyway?
It’s ok to want that and not this,
It’s ok to think about them at times,
It’s ok have some wishful thinking moments,
It’s ok to wonder what it could have been,
It’s ok to miss them,
It’s ok to say goodbye,
It’s ok to have enough,
It’s ok to live your life.

The Good to Come

I waited patiently,

I almost lost hope,

What I knew faded away,

The truth was not so clear anymore,

Charged I was at the start,

The quest for the vision was more vigorous and attentive in my heart,

I saw no impossibility,

I saw it all come to pass,

Little did I consider the path to it,

The beauty of the end mattered more,

No cost was too much to pay,

“I will get there…I will have that…I will be like that…”

This was me at the starting line,

Little did it hit me, you don’t appear there, you walk there,

And who said it would be easy?

The process matters,

The process shapes us, preps us for what to come,

The process breaks us to make us,

We faint, we hurt, we wait,

We lose, we are broken, disappointed,

No one said it would be easy,

It’s not clear anymore,

Where is your hope now?

You come to doubt what you’ve known to be true,

Waiting is not easy,

Patiently waiting, is not either,

But He is faithful,

Though it linger, it shall come,

Set your eyes on things above,

Write your vision in caps,

Though it linger, do not lose it,

There is hope for the living,

Every dawning day is a chance to get there,

We will find good, in the land of the living,

Though it linger, good shall come,

Find us in our place and overwhelm us,

The good to come, now it comes.

You say we are not lovers

You say you love me,
But we are not lovers,
You know how I feel about you,
But you say we are not lovers,
I see love in your eyes,
But you say we are not lovers,
I hear love in your voice,
Yet you say we are not lovers,
We chat like lovers,
You claim we are not,
Our late night calls,
Only lovers do that,
You do not want to hang up, neither do I,
But you say we are not lovers,
Shall I trust you words or your actions?
One betrays the other,
Are we lovers?
You say we are not; you act like we are,
Your words deny but you act your heart,
How long shall you deny what your heart feels?
Shall I wait in limbo?
You put me in a trace,
I fear to snap out of it and find you follow your words,
You call me sweetheart, I call you honey,
Are we not lovers?
How false can words be?
You say we are friends,
I do not deny,
But friends don’t have what we have,
Friends are not crazy like we are,
We are friends, we are lovers,
The heart is seldom wrong,
It will not hurt to listen to it,
Follow your heart they say,
Follow your heart I say,
This can be beautiful,
We can be lovers.

Love and let love

How deep does this love go?
Where does this path end?
What is in for me?
How bad can it get?
What will people say?
Is it worth fighting for?
All this math I overlook,
Off the cliff,,
Lets fall in love!

I will love again,
My dear desolate land has blossomed again,
Come take my hand,
Lets walk this path of love,
Let me take care of your heart,
As you love me I will follow,
My heart is yours,
Come lets love all over again!

You my love, my heart has chosen,
This love, our Love,
May God bless and keep,
Love, love my heart, love with all you are,
My heart faint not to love your lover,
In your faults and in your strengths,
Love my heart, love and love the more,
What can be more beautiful?
What can elate this heart as much?
Love and lets love.

The beauty is in the difference

You like passion, I like pineapples
I like classy, you prefer simple,
Expensive goes for me, cheap and good works for you,
You fast for 21 days, I struggle with three-am still working on it
You like books, a movie for me any day,
You love meat, I don’t,
I can’t stand the music you like, I listen anyway
You read, I write
You sell, I buy
We are not the same
We are not born the same,
We are made the same,
What you missed is what I got,
The days are not the same,
Twins may be similar but not the same,
We differ in language, in preference, We are different,
Breathe the same air, under the same sun and moon,
Yet we differ,
We however find a common ground,
To agree we are different is the start,
Appreciate the difference is the other,
The beauty is in the difference,
You sing, I play
You run, I swim
You’re bold to fight, am skilled to plan
Strong in might, witty in mind
A hot winter, a cold summer
The beauty is in the difference I say,
All similar would be boring
What you lack is what I have,
That way we’ll need each other,
The secret is difference,
The beauty is in the difference.

Passing cloud blocking my sunshine

This is but a passing cloud,
You slowly move to block my sunshine,
I feel you blocking my sunshine,
I see you blocking it,
You think you've won?
You forget-you are but a cloud,
The earth is on a journey,
To move is its curse,
I will most certainly move,
You won't be long,
I will be kind to say goodbye,
I will watch you pass,
I will see the sun again,
My sunshine kissing my skin again,
You are but a passing cloud blocking my sunshine.

*Nothing is forever.Whatever bad or good that comes into your life,remember,This too shall pass.Only God is there forever.*

The gifts my days bring

One day at a time they sang,
I agree, one day at a time,
Live the moments, live each day on its own,
Love each day on its own,
No day dawns as the other,
Though the sun be one, though the moon shine the night,
None is like the other,
Each day with its own troubles,
I will live this day, I will conquer this day.

One day, two days, three days...
On and on they pass,
I will not fret, they draw me closer,
Closer to my end, farther from my start,
My end is near, my past is farther,
Destiny calls, days draw me near,
Nearer, closer I get to my destiny, my end,
My past is far, my destiny is close,
One day at a time, one day at a time.

The day and its troubles shall come,
I will live on, my end is not today,
Tomorrow is another day,
Closer I get, farther I go,
I am strong, I believe so, I know so,
No day will outweigh me, I will conquer the day.
Closer I get, farther I go,
The troubles teach me, I learn,
My heart will learn, I will not run,
I fall today, I rise tomorrow,
Closer I move, my destiny beckons,
Today is not enough, I long for tomorrow,

My days bring me lessons,
They bring me trouble and joy,
Am overwhelmed but I live on, one day at a time,
There is grace for each day, strength for each day,
Though it runs out at times,
The will to see another day will carry me to tomorrow,
I end not today, tomorrow awaits me, I cannot fail,
The author of the days has written my tomorrow,
I have my part to play tomorrow,
I do not end today.

Today I live, tomorrow is another day,
The gift my days bring,
I live on, I do not end today,
The days are good, the days are evil,
Still I live on, I do not end today.

This life we've known

How today rises is not as tomorrow will,
Though sun shines for all,
It’s not the same for all.

This life,
I will sing a song,
My heart is intrigued,
A song will do.

What cry goes unanswered?
What course is without a purpose?
In this life,this world we've known.

Vanity!! the wise man said,
All is vanity, a chase after the wind,
What then is life?

What is man that life has found him?
That he’s seen the good and evil of the day,
While day’s trouble will come,
He finds pleasure still, in his troubled days.

While no one knows the day to come,
All awake to meet it anyway,
Though it may hit hard,
We rise again and prepare for the next.
 
This life we've known,
This world we know,
The good exist and so does the bad,
None is flawless,
None is complete,
This world we know,
This life we've known.

My dear desolate land

A cup of hot chocolate,
Two sugars and the latest copy of the dailies,
Am all set for this.
A few pages down, I love my hot chocolate,
Sip sip my cup is halfway down,
I flip over and there’s this story, “Old and still in love”,
My mind wonders away,
To a land now so desolate,
Once lovely and lively,
Now lies bare earth and shrubs,
This land remains untilled for some time now,
Though my land, I wish not till it,
I once did but bore no fruit,
I will not, I wish not to till it,
I have since found other grounds to till,
I leave this bare,
It brings me turmoil
Once dear, now bare
It has rejected my efforts to make it bring fruit,
I rest my case, I will toil not anymore,
My doleful heart finds pleasure in a new land,
They’ve tilled their land till old age,
Mine young fertile land lies bare,
I find no strength to till it,
Grace be upon me,
Let I find fruit in my new land.

Set the heart on things above

             ***My Joy is in the Lord above***

There is not a greater advantage a mortal man on earth can have than when they have a backing of an immortal power. Say, having the author of destinies lead your path to destiny. It’s like having your parent set the national exam which you are to sit for. It couldn’t get any better right?
 
Now,the bible urges us to set our eyes/hope on things above; hope in things unseen; to have heaven as our bank and not here where treasures are prone to moths and other destroyers. Setting our hearts on things above...

Colossians 3:1-2 -Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God.
 
Someone once told me, the difference between joy and happiness,-other than the spelling-is that, happiness is dependent on things that can be seen and touched. Joy on the other hand however, is depended and based on things unseen.
 
The Lord in His word most often talks of joy. This is what He gives us when our happiness is shaken. When that which brought happiness to our hearts is taken away and that happiness is gone, a heart without gladness is left. The Lord thus gives joy which in turn strengthens up the heart to live again.”The joy of the Lord is my strength”.
 
A few days ago, something happened in my life. Something that erased quite a piece of happiness from me for some days. I would have gone to extremes of depression and making crazy and hasty decisions BUT I thank God for His joy that quickly found rest in my heart and empowered it to find peace and live on.(This is the advantage of having God as your father you see.He's always near to comfort and empower His own). 

As I write this, I can confidently proclaim that the joy of the Lord is my strength. It is the reason I wake up to face the day after the incident.
 
When all that brings you happiness is gone, only the joy from the Lord can comfort such a heart. Like the peace of God that surpasses all understanding, the joy of the Lord goes beyond any description.
 
Whereas we find happiness in what we have, let us above all tap joy from heaven. Take delight in the Lord, for only He remains when all else is gone. Let the joy of the Lord excite your heart more than happiness does-it is a joy everlasting that we have in the Lord.